"ur amazing, emily"

- ryan


yup. i wrote him a note
was gonna give it to him fri
but.........
......... there was a snow day!!!
so............
i gave it to him today.
i had it alll planned out...
i was going to say
"ryan i really like you, so i wrote you an note...." bla bla bla
but instead after health i gave it to him saying "i wrote u a note"
cuz im a dork
the adrenalin rush felt good
then i saw him after lunch.
his gaze met me but he kept walking....
inside i freaked out just a little
just a little tho
then....
my friends
amber & mad
helped me out n we had some laffs
hehehehe
mad + devil= 4eva


later i saw him after sql
today was a halfday btw
and we talked
it was akward @ 1st
then I just pretended it was all
smooth
so it was ok.
me= sooo, what do u think?
(silence)
me= i was gonna talk to u b4... but i get nervous!
[im a dork]
ry= im kindof confused about what u wrote... do u mean going out? like boyfreind and girlfriend?
[duh, ryan jk]
me= yeah
then, he gets nervous and rambles about how im cool, totally cool
and we should be friends, really good friends.
(i tuned out a little)
then he said im amazing
ARG i want him to change his mind
but i felt comfortable in all my adrenalin and butterflies
like i could totally talk to him
as friends...
or more.............
but we'll see
i hope he really means it. "youre amazing"
~ur too**********