{more little choppy bites of poetry}

joe
my god u
just cant
stop fucking with
my heart

matt part II
hahaha
were
pervs

matt & joe
tell me
do i even
have a chance
with any
of you?

joe part II
you
fill me with
a feeling
and
no one else
has ever given
me

joe part III
it kills me
not knowing
if you ever feel
the same too

joe IV
u dont
because
you would
just have to let me know

emily part II
youre insane
for that joe guy
arent you

yeah
but i
dont think i can
help it
~

all i want is for
someone to feel the same way
too

why must
we hold back our
love for
eachother?

{last weeks poetry

see that girl
with the smiling eyes
she puts them on
as a disguise
they hide what
she feels inside
she doesnt even know
why she wants to hide
so she'll bundle it up
and put her longing aside
to put on
her smiling eyes
she puts on a dream
so nothing has
to be what
it seems
and it makes
her happy when
shes the
only one
who knows what
it means
cuz when you put
something aside
you begin to
believe in your lies
so she makes a fool
of her self
cuz shes stuck in
the dreams
stuck behind
her
smiling eyes
even if people
see through
her cheap disguise
she keeps on
smiling throgh those eyes

j.o.e

i said the j-word


helped out at bay lane choir concert
saw kirsten and jessie
my best friends

and i saw

joe


i luv joe

long story
if ur my friend
u have alresdy heard thre long dtory
or u were there

question:

does the tag-board work on ur computer?
plz comment
cuz it doesnt work
on mine.

Here are some poems from my journal

i forgot my journal yesterday. but these are from in my journal.

matt
i hope
your eyes
meet mine
for one moment
we hold a gaze
wanting to speak
and we don't.

blake
you sre different
and i thought
i knew you
but no
now i am embarassed.

alex + stevan
why can't you
forget our
differences
why is
cooperation
so hard
with guys
like you?
one word

ego.

emily {me}
self centered
off centered
i always want to know
how you will
change next.

anthony
why must you
say things
that are hurtful
when you have
that absolutely
large and
atrocious
zit on your face?

sierra
i can't tell
what your words
mean anymore
we are very
different
so its very
hard to tell

josh
immature
is an
understatement.

chris
big eyes
stare @ me.
in disgust?
who cares-
you are georgeous.

mrs. joas
you
are so
god damn
scary
please
stop
teaching.

justin
you are
amusing
and kind
uniqueness
makes my day

sierra part II
the other
poem
was sad
its just
i am
jealous
cuz i luv
ur clothes
and im jealous
of your cousin
and his waaaay
cool friends

kevin
you look
and are
a music
god
perfect man

zach
what was i
thinking
when you
could have
almost
any
girl
but
what ev

zach part II
your eyes

brian
i remember
liking you
last year

angie
so jealous
of your clothes
i could
talk all
night
with you
( oh yeah
we already did
that once)

sally
very very jealous
thanks
for being
nice even
if i am a
frosh
and ur a senior

emily roths
you are
really a
great
role
model
without being
a goody two shoes
i heart
you

mr drake
go do
some chemistry
problems
but
stop
giving us
assigments

erik
i am so
embarassed
by you
why didnt
anyone send
that girl to mental help?

fall
when i walked
out this morining
there was
snow
resting on the
ground.
i like snow.

chris part II
what are you
thinking when
you look like that?
i luv ur tye dye shirts.
chris
equals
eye candy =]

sierra part III
i am
not
a good friend.
sorry for
being weird.

disney
i would
do
anything
to fast
forward
to the days
that i am
at disney world

this is ME

{{

set
me
free

{music

i like music.

{ }

today
is cold
just like you.

{ }

you
may think
writing
all choppy
like this
is not a poem
but i like it.

{ }

i love your
flannel shirts
and your eyes
and your hair
but
you
have
a girlfriend

{more

what is in
your mind
when you
give me
those looks?

boy and a girl by octavio paz

streched out
on the grass
a boy
and a girl
savoring their oranges
giving their kisses
like waves
exchanging
foam

streched out
on the beach
a boy
and a girl
savoring their limes
giving their kisses
like clouds
exchanging
foam

streched out
underground
a boy
and a girl
saying nothing
never kissing
giving silence

for silence.

{poems~

i want
to hear your
voice but
i just
walk away.

{poetry

let our eyes
meet
for a
moment

i will follow u into the dark

love of mine some day you will die
but i'll be close behind
i'll follow you into the dark
no blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark
in catholic school as vicious as roman rule
i got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
and i held my tongue as she told me
"son fear is the heart of love"
so i never went back
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark
you and me have seen everything to see
from bangkok to calgary
and the soles of your shoes are all worn down
the time for sleep is now
it's nothing to cry about
cause we'll hold each other soon
in the blackest of rooms
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark
then i'll follow you into the dark

cabaret

what sould i sing for cabaret?????

cold windy day =]

i love cold


i had my echo today
very boring
it was @ childrens hospital, too
so i had to watch dora and curios george.
but i
am not going
to die!!!!!!
yay!!!
i hope i never have to see a heart again,
they are reallly gross
when you can see the chambers
open close
open close
ewwww
but its better than if
it didnt open and close at all;
i'd be dead.
so i am ok