neon, josh, stupidity, tired

today i took a huge risk and wore my hot pink dress with my hot blue cardigan
but it was pretty fun

theres 3 joshs in B&B. one is the beast-hamer, one is a really cute preppy senior, and the other is also cute but i dont know what grade yet.
i dont like love him like him but hes cool
yet i flirt with him cuz i have fun doing that...
hes a lot like my flirting syle only less stupid.
yep u heard it
my one sole goal for this semester- be less stupid
but he brings out the 'uh i forgot' in me
but @ least hes sweet and not gay this time
(as far as i know)
(even though i dont even know what grade hes in...dun dun duuuuun)

Exams, fights, rehersals.........

MUCH stress was lifted off my chest as i left school at 10:00am (open campus, baby!)
my dad went to vegas this week so at least some stress was gone
but it doesnt help that my best friend (ex-best friend?) is very mad at me although ive apologised many times.
Beauty and the Beast is getting harder and harder, yet increasingly fun, too

howdy there partner!

im reading Langston Huges for fun not skool...
i love him
he is amazing!
"my soul runs as deep as the river"
yea i know how i act @ skool, but im really deep and serious too.
it all depends.....
heres a poem I wrote on 10-17, k?

my memory of you is like fire
and you are gasoline
but as my thoughts grow old
i see you've left me in the cold
and standing in the rain

to me you are rain
to wash away scars and pain
with you i feel i can fly
but then the sun comes out
and you've left me dry~


heres another


one
thousand thoughts
go through my brain
of
what to do
when i see you again

wow, i fixed my computer!

i fixed my computer and got on this site, given i started at 3:57! its 5:00 now, but ive been on myspace and had to pretend to play solitare until my dad left cuz he always wants to see my email and myspace, but hasnt gotten around to it....

i dont want to talk about it much but its on my mind- i am an immature ass and probably ruined any chance of me going to Winter Formal with my crush and friend (unless he hates me) Ryan.
its like whenever i decide to be with my friends and act immature- he is right there to witness me in my dorkiest. thats all i will say....
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help, im asking u to help me find the meaning of this...

i had a dream where everyone thought i was a meth druggie person. i was very depressed!what a nightmare! =[ but then i called miss queen cari westover cari leftover and she got waaaay pissed. lol

hmmmm....

A time of merriment and reflection spent in the company of friends and loved ones. The conclusion of a matter in plenty and perfection. The strength of a diverse community being brought together. May suggest a celebration, festival, anniversary, wedding, baby shower, or other joyous gathering.

shalom, 2006!!!

in case you are culturally challenged, shalom means hello, goodbye, AND peace.
so i am saying goodbye to last year:
year of leggings under mini jean skirts,
the death of the Crocildile Hunter,
K-Fed's first (and hopefully last!) album debut,
and of course: the begining of this blog!


hmm, this year so far, ive actually finished something(!)- the first part of a scrapbook!
its very cute and purple. cant wait to show everyone!
and ive re done my drab and icky book case and graced it with actual books! and viola! a cute space added to my room. it even makes my candles from my wiccan [fase] look cute.
speaking of wicca....... i think i might wanna get into that again.... but im not sure!