HI

yup i havent written ne good poetry lately...
so i bought some new cds so maybe ill produce SOME thing...
i have this cool rant ive been writing but im tiered and want to bake cookies.
so all of you at my skoll get ready 4 yummy cookies. k?

nothingness

feeling numb
idk
it was a cool week...
yup more l8r

I TOTALLY FORGOT!

i forgot to post that i made it into b&b
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"ur amazing, emily"

- ryan


yup. i wrote him a note
was gonna give it to him fri
but.........
......... there was a snow day!!!
so............
i gave it to him today.
i had it alll planned out...
i was going to say
"ryan i really like you, so i wrote you an note...." bla bla bla
but instead after health i gave it to him saying "i wrote u a note"
cuz im a dork
the adrenalin rush felt good
then i saw him after lunch.
his gaze met me but he kept walking....
inside i freaked out just a little
just a little tho
then....
my friends
amber & mad
helped me out n we had some laffs
hehehehe
mad + devil= 4eva


later i saw him after sql
today was a halfday btw
and we talked
it was akward @ 1st
then I just pretended it was all
smooth
so it was ok.
me= sooo, what do u think?
(silence)
me= i was gonna talk to u b4... but i get nervous!
[im a dork]
ry= im kindof confused about what u wrote... do u mean going out? like boyfreind and girlfriend?
[duh, ryan jk]
me= yeah
then, he gets nervous and rambles about how im cool, totally cool
and we should be friends, really good friends.
(i tuned out a little)
then he said im amazing
ARG i want him to change his mind
but i felt comfortable in all my adrenalin and butterflies
like i could totally talk to him
as friends...
or more.............
but we'll see
i hope he really means it. "youre amazing"
~ur too**********

henry wadsworth longfellow

O'erhead were revolving, so countless and bright,
The stars in melodious existence;
And with them the moon, more serenely bedight;--
They sparkled so light
In the night, in the night,
Through the magical, measureless distance.
And upward I gazed in the night, in the night,
And again on the waves in their fleeting;
Ah woe! thou hast wasted thy days in delight,
Now silence thou light, In the night, in the night,

wool

dreams of wool
and ur in my head
covering angst
wilth wool
blankets woven with secret
thoughts cuz shyness gets the best
of you and me too
but dreams like wool
comfort me
when i wake i see
you but its only a trick
wool over my eyes
cuz shyness gets the
best ba da ba ba best
best of you
best of you and me

rain falls today

november rain
collects in my head
haunting puddles are
my memory of you reflections foggy in
the rain rainy water
rain fall fall falls
water from the sky
rain falls today

p0etry~!@#$%^& bout ryan

i'll be here
in case you want to
come with me
cuz i'll just wait
who will make that firstmove
besides eyes met in a room
come on just talk to me
its you im writing for
but i cant find
the words i want to hand
to you

yea sum more of that poetry

clouds ribbon over a metallic moon
feathered stripes
between the blck velvet songs
the platinum sparks
the sound of cars
acompanies the sky
dont you wish you
would just float
into the velvety
metallic nothing
that we lay in awe
thinking our shallow
deep thoughts
under yes
lets fly away

update hate list

i dont hate tyler.
but i HATE
merissa.
k?

georgeous seniors

kevin
alex
josh
u r amazing
i want to b ur friend

[kevin
you look
and are
a music
god
perfect man]
^old poem

they actually talked TO ME today
swoon

beauty [and the beast]

hmmmmmmm
i want to be chip

that is

if i am good enough for a role

otherwise
i am happy being in the chorus too.

"bored)

i am bored
plz leave a comment
cuz i heart u!

hey wats up

made $24
thanks mel

dont love n e 1 @ the moment

sies b day fri!!!!!
wait till ya c wat i got ya
im x-cited.

hate list

srry ppl i hate you:

• tyler s
• meena & josh k
• austin p
• sami s

rawr

i aM tryin to delete my tag board cuz it don work
it wont go away!!!

yay!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

40 posts!
idk
i just want to type
=]

shadows

im so tired
but thats
ok

i ate mcdonalds today
i feel very fat

but tasty =]

yea at mels
lol
lots of fun!

cept shes aslpeep rite now =[
what ev
c ya

{{hi}}

in order the guys i like

1. ryan
2. matt
3. joe

i really wanna date ryan

but i dont know what he would do

if i asked him out!!!!

GIVE ME ADVISE!!!!!!!!!!

{more little choppy bites of poetry}

joe
my god u
just cant
stop fucking with
my heart

matt part II
hahaha
were
pervs

matt & joe
tell me
do i even
have a chance
with any
of you?

joe part II
you
fill me with
a feeling
and
no one else
has ever given
me

joe part III
it kills me
not knowing
if you ever feel
the same too

joe IV
u dont
because
you would
just have to let me know

emily part II
youre insane
for that joe guy
arent you

yeah
but i
dont think i can
help it
~

all i want is for
someone to feel the same way
too

why must
we hold back our
love for
eachother?

{last weeks poetry

see that girl
with the smiling eyes
she puts them on
as a disguise
they hide what
she feels inside
she doesnt even know
why she wants to hide
so she'll bundle it up
and put her longing aside
to put on
her smiling eyes
she puts on a dream
so nothing has
to be what
it seems
and it makes
her happy when
shes the
only one
who knows what
it means
cuz when you put
something aside
you begin to
believe in your lies
so she makes a fool
of her self
cuz shes stuck in
the dreams
stuck behind
her
smiling eyes
even if people
see through
her cheap disguise
she keeps on
smiling throgh those eyes

j.o.e

i said the j-word


helped out at bay lane choir concert
saw kirsten and jessie
my best friends

and i saw

joe


i luv joe

long story
if ur my friend
u have alresdy heard thre long dtory
or u were there

question:

does the tag-board work on ur computer?
plz comment
cuz it doesnt work
on mine.

Here are some poems from my journal

i forgot my journal yesterday. but these are from in my journal.

matt
i hope
your eyes
meet mine
for one moment
we hold a gaze
wanting to speak
and we don't.

blake
you sre different
and i thought
i knew you
but no
now i am embarassed.

alex + stevan
why can't you
forget our
differences
why is
cooperation
so hard
with guys
like you?
one word

ego.

emily {me}
self centered
off centered
i always want to know
how you will
change next.

anthony
why must you
say things
that are hurtful
when you have
that absolutely
large and
atrocious
zit on your face?

sierra
i can't tell
what your words
mean anymore
we are very
different
so its very
hard to tell

josh
immature
is an
understatement.

chris
big eyes
stare @ me.
in disgust?
who cares-
you are georgeous.

mrs. joas
you
are so
god damn
scary
please
stop
teaching.

justin
you are
amusing
and kind
uniqueness
makes my day

sierra part II
the other
poem
was sad
its just
i am
jealous
cuz i luv
ur clothes
and im jealous
of your cousin
and his waaaay
cool friends

kevin
you look
and are
a music
god
perfect man

zach
what was i
thinking
when you
could have
almost
any
girl
but
what ev

zach part II
your eyes

brian
i remember
liking you
last year

angie
so jealous
of your clothes
i could
talk all
night
with you
( oh yeah
we already did
that once)

sally
very very jealous
thanks
for being
nice even
if i am a
frosh
and ur a senior

emily roths
you are
really a
great
role
model
without being
a goody two shoes
i heart
you

mr drake
go do
some chemistry
problems
but
stop
giving us
assigments

erik
i am so
embarassed
by you
why didnt
anyone send
that girl to mental help?

fall
when i walked
out this morining
there was
snow
resting on the
ground.
i like snow.

chris part II
what are you
thinking when
you look like that?
i luv ur tye dye shirts.
chris
equals
eye candy =]

sierra part III
i am
not
a good friend.
sorry for
being weird.

disney
i would
do
anything
to fast
forward
to the days
that i am
at disney world

this is ME

{{

set
me
free

{music

i like music.

{ }

today
is cold
just like you.

{ }

you
may think
writing
all choppy
like this
is not a poem
but i like it.

{ }

i love your
flannel shirts
and your eyes
and your hair
but
you
have
a girlfriend

{more

what is in
your mind
when you
give me
those looks?

boy and a girl by octavio paz

streched out
on the grass
a boy
and a girl
savoring their oranges
giving their kisses
like waves
exchanging
foam

streched out
on the beach
a boy
and a girl
savoring their limes
giving their kisses
like clouds
exchanging
foam

streched out
underground
a boy
and a girl
saying nothing
never kissing
giving silence

for silence.

{poems~

i want
to hear your
voice but
i just
walk away.

{poetry

let our eyes
meet
for a
moment

i will follow u into the dark

love of mine some day you will die
but i'll be close behind
i'll follow you into the dark
no blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark
in catholic school as vicious as roman rule
i got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
and i held my tongue as she told me
"son fear is the heart of love"
so i never went back
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark
you and me have seen everything to see
from bangkok to calgary
and the soles of your shoes are all worn down
the time for sleep is now
it's nothing to cry about
cause we'll hold each other soon
in the blackest of rooms
if heaven and hell decide
that they both are satisfied
illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you
when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark
then i'll follow you into the dark

cabaret

what sould i sing for cabaret?????

cold windy day =]

i love cold


i had my echo today
very boring
it was @ childrens hospital, too
so i had to watch dora and curios george.
but i
am not going
to die!!!!!!
yay!!!
i hope i never have to see a heart again,
they are reallly gross
when you can see the chambers
open close
open close
ewwww
but its better than if
it didnt open and close at all;
i'd be dead.
so i am ok

I will get over Zach Zello I will get over Zach Zello I will get over Zach Zello

I will get over Zach Zello
I WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all justin can say these days is zachs gay zachs gay
but im not convinced
i gave him a poem
and he wrote me a note
but hes not interested
and i am left
clod
adn single
and wondering
is zach gay?
sadd ness sadness SADNESS!!!!!!!!!!!

Junk Random sTuff

Junk Random sTuff
this is sie and me 's new blog.
justa let yall know

Homecoming!!!!

yay! we won by a very close 42/35!!!!! we were gonna lose, too.
the dance wuz waaaaay fun!
mostly hung w/ sami, kelsey, kelsey's sister, and their dates.
i saw my lunch buddies- lauren and kacey (juniors).
I saw sally and wanted to go over n dance with them
but i never did [sally is, like, my role model!!!]
and i said hi to zach three times but thats it.
jason waved to me n i wanted to slow dance with him but chickened out also.
so when i saw blake,
my hist. partner, i asked him
but was rejected!
@ least he still acts normal bout it-
i thoght maybe he would be immature.
but it was all fun;
i try not to let my lack-of-a lovelife get in the way.
pshhh love life
i barely have a social life!!!!!!!!!!
lotsa love,
em

Homecoming!!!!

yay! we won by a very close 42/35!!!!! we were gonna lose, too.
the dance wuz waaaaay fun!
mostly hung w/ sami, kelsey, kelsey's sister, and their dates.
i saw my lunch buddies- lauren and kacey (juniors).
I saw sally and wanted to go over n dance with them
but i never did [sally is, like, my role model!!!]
and i said hi to zach three times but thats it.
jason waved to me n i wanted to slow dance with him but chickened out also.
so when i saw blake,
my hist. partner, i asked him
but was rejected!
@ least he still acts normal bout it-
i thoght maybe he would be immature.
but it was all fun;
i try not to let my lack-of-a lovelife get in the way.
pshhh love life
i barely have a social life!!!!!!!!!!
lotsa love,
em

eh ugh sigh

so much on my mind lately, but when i finally get to the computer, i have nothing to write.
this week has been the greatest cuz its spirit week!!! i really like spanish. chorale is fun beyond belief. i love eating lunch with justin! hes so much fun! yeah, but i havent talked to zach zello much lately until today when he liked my grillz. yes, i wore grillz to school, much like my myspace and gangster blog pics which u must check out! hopefully sally and rebecca email me my spirit week pics.
more later, bye

im sorry i havent posted in awhile

you see, my internet at home is very very slow

high school

i see girls and their bfs like making out in the hallway
i am soooo jealous!
i want a boyfriend!!!!
stevan is my lab partner! hes so cute!
Jason ditched the glasses! cute!
eh.
football game friday!!!!
goin with Ang and allie, maybe sierra?

end of summer endevours

chicago was soooo fun! e ate lunch at the jimmy johns next to cvs
then we hopped into nordstrom. i really like that store! they had a cool sale, but i didnt find anything worth hauling around. before waltzing into the oreintal, we stopped into borders. i bought the broadway cast wicked cd on sale for 14.99- a steal cuz to but it at the oriental cost 25!!! before the show my parents bought ne a wicked tee- the black shortsleeve one the crew wears. we found our seats, row n, 325 (thats me) to 329, they go in odd numbers. 329 is an aisle. after getting seated, who else to walk by than a schoolmate misfit, jak bonafice! i said hi. he found his seat in the same asile as me, two seats away!!! what the heck! what are the chances!
after the absolutley AMAZING performance, we walked and i pointed out a pub called monks. it was pretty cool inside. we found a booth. the walls were bookshelves with a myriad of old books. the other wall was roofed booths with lanterns. they had hughe hamburgers and hungrily we ate the whole thing. after we left, we were having troubles finding our way back. dad was being a jack ass control freak, mom was being stubborn, do it her way, and little old me, lets take a cab. after umpteen minutes of arguing, i hailed the first cab i saw! we made it safely back to the union station.
emily marie!

update

good news, the dress at Windsor was steamed, and any sign of a stain whatsoever was completely obliterated!
however, i found a more flattering dress at Boston Store.
It is a deep purlpley pink with black lace over it. the top is a corset that is REEELY tight. it ends a little below the knee and the skirt has some extra fabric gathered on both sides.
now, it may sound like it looks gothic, but it doesnt look gothic. it is a little rock n roll but its really flirty too.
i am still dateless, so if ur a guy from mhs, u know what to do!!! lol
em marie

this is Victor in 1973 with a fro

this is victor garber in Godspell, his first movie! you can rent it at muskego library if ya want!

V.G.

this is a picture of victor garber as you may know him.
hes my fave actor!!!!!!!!

change of plans

yes, i am going to homecoming!
theres a dress @ winsor that i want but it has a gross stain on it.
they are trying to get it out.
its a light aqua blue with little sparkle flowers patterend on it. wait a sec, ill try to find a picture of it okay? sorry. cant find a pic. but i dindnt see a lot of dresses i saw on the site.

my happy post!

yay! i have like 4 hundred dolars worth of clothes!
tomorrow is Wicked! i cant wait!!!!!!!!!
guess what. i was thinking, about things and i realized this next year aka 2007 i will be going on three vacations!!!! spring break, choir trip and a summer visit to Michigan!

toos-day

mom and i arent talkking. long story. eh.
victor garber is on the new show justice on fox tomorrow at eight.
hey if ya get a chance, check out my blog called way out. way-out-there dot blogspot bla bla.
im rethinking going to homecoming cuz me and my mom fighting equals no dress shopping and no dress = homcoming disaster!
however i have it all planned out: if someone, preferably a hot guy asks me to go i will simply say "lets go to a movie instead of listening to hip hop songs ive never heard and everyone else knows every word to." the sad part is that he would probably decline thinking i was a social outcast.
maybe ill hang out with middleschoolers. woo. fun. (sarcasm)
now im going to make a happy post!
heart, em marie

highschool, wicked, and shopping!

ahh, i love mayfair! incase you are reading this and dont know, mayfair is a mall with wisconsin's high end stores. it doesnt even have a macy's! for me tho, its a big deal cuz i never get to go there.
highschool- im registered and have my id. my picture is a 6.5 out of ten and for a school picture, thats pretty good. its sooo big and i dont know anyone in my classes yet!!! i dont have lunch with ANYOONE!!! every one has 5B and 5C and i have 4B!!!!!! i am so sad!!!! i am trying out for chorale.
4 days until Wicked! On Wednesday we, my mom and dad and me, are traveling to Chicago to see Wicked!!! im sooooo excited!

well, i have to go post on the other blogs!!!!
em marie

hi

just a sec. brb. I LOVE RENT!!!!
c ya home-eys
check out laurie stolarz new novel, Bleed!!!

Recent Dreams

one day this week i dreamed that i was @ sie [my best friend since 5th grade] @ her house and two boys were there [hotties!] one was dylan, sierras lifetime friend and on again off again boyfriend. the other was his friend. dylans like "check out my new shoes" and sierra started bowing down @ him! then he pulled out what looked like a cigarrette and said hey guys want some weed and im like i dont know how!!!

not like i wouldve smoked

okay.
then the next night i was popular. i hung out with katie B., Angie, and the merissas, spencer and my best friend was alex Y. the sad part was i kinda left c behind =[ anyway, me and spencer were partners in home ec and were baking a cake when i forgot to tell spencer the oven was going to explode!!!!!
spencer died and i blamed myself in a convo w/ alex. he suddenly got really mad and called me a stuck up dildo!!! i was humiliated! soon my group of friends were igonring me and laffing at the jokes being made about me. i was even in the newspaper! EVERYONE h8ed me sooooo much. i ran up to sierra and gave her a biiiiiiG hug and she said everything wood b alrite but then walked away with her group of friends. then i went by mickey my friend from church and he ignored me!!! even mrs milton kicked me out of godspell!!!!!
i forced myself awake because it was tooooooooo depressing!

a week ago i had a marvelous dream where both alex y and his bro, my crush Zach were in love with me. a lot of my friends were in it too.

6_9
3 hrs til ang's slpovr!!!

Fresh Start

now that all these things are changing in my life, i need a fresh start.
things in my life change very often
lately its been for the better
so here goes, a new blog!!